Written & ASL by: Laura Godbold
I am fascinated with the stars, especially the stars in the sky at night seem the most beautiful! The stars were created by the Lord.
“God made two great lights—the larger one to govern the day, and the smaller one to govern the night. He also made the stars. God set these lights in the sky to light the earth, to govern the day and night, and to separate the light from the darkness. And God saw that it was good” – Genesis 1:16
We cannot count the number of the stars because there are MILLIONS of them! People have been saying for centuries how beautiful they are at night. They talk about lying on the ground, looking up at the sky in awe and wonder. How amazing is that! Yet, the truth is that I WISH I knew how beautiful the stars are and that I could experience that same wonder and awe of God!
Yet, the truth is that I WISH I knew how beautiful the stars are and that I could experience that same wonder and awe of God!.
The reality is that I cannot see the stars, especially at night. I have never experienced seeing the stars. Can you imagine that? Can you imagine not seeing one of the Lord’s masterpieces? You see, I was born and diagnosed with an Usher Syndrome type 1. Usher Syndrome is a disorder primarily characterized by deafness accomplinated by retinitis pigmentosa which affects the retina and causes the progressive loss of vision. Because of my Usher Syndrome, I am not able to see the nighttime stars. The irony is that I can see the sun and moon in the day and night for which I am thankful. The point is that everyone always makes comments by saying how amazing are the stars! But, I am left wondering about them.
I have always wondered what the stars really look like. I can look at pictures and see them. I learned about stars, cosmology, planets, galaxies, and asteroids in my highschool Astronomy class. And, I can see “stars” on the ceiling in a dark room by using the protector that my beloved husband got me for Christmas. BUT, I know it’s not the same as the real stars in the evening sky. I wish I could see them now, but the hardest part of my life journey is that I have to wait.
The journey through my imperfect eyes and the navigation of blindness as a Christian DeafBlind woman is not easy. With my imperfect eyes, I have walked through so many bumps in this imperfect life. And, I cannot deny that my vision is getting a bit worse each day. This terrifies me. At the same time, my faith in the Lord has grown stronger and continues to grow, everyday. But, I will never know if tomorrow is the day I become fully blind. Knowing that the Lord’s presence is with me is my comfort;
The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. Psalms 18:2.
With my imperfect eyes, I have walked through so many bumps in this imperfect life.
He is my compass and keeps me steady, as I navigate my blindness and embrace my identity as a DeafBlind Christian woman.
I know, one day, I will have the chance to see the real stars. That’s the day when I go home to the Lord. I know my comments will be the same as everyone else’s. I have no doubt that I’ll look at them in awe and wonder. I’m looking forward to that day! The day when the Lord will put one of His arms over my shoulder and use His other arm, from side to side, to show me one of His masterpieces; the stars.
About the Author:
My name is Laura Godbold. I am a DeafBlind storyteller.
To type my stories, I use Word Doc just the same as others, but to make it more accessible for my vision while typing, I use Zoom magnifying in the system preferences to allow me to zoom the screen on my TV. My TV is not the best solution, so I continue to pray for an iMAC one day. I also use inverted display colors to lessen the brightness of the background due to my eye sensitivity to lights. With inverted display colors, I prefer using a black background with either yellow or white fonts. Lastly, I use “Keys U See” for the visually imparied. It helps with its large print English black keyboard and contrasting white letters.